Shh shh.

Something I’ve learned these past two weeks:
“People will always talk about you. Let them, it’s you who affected their lives, they didn’t affect yours DON’T LET THEM AFFECT YOURS.”

Johnalaba SBPH is awesome. Period. <3

Dear ______,

This is what it feels like to not be forgiven. It’s been a little over a year now, and I’m trying, I promise I am. Remember when you wanted me to try? Now you don’t want to have anything to do with me. I guess this was one of the consequences I had feared, but never expected to come to life. I’ve always told myself that if you didn’t forgive me, I would move forward. I was wrong. It’s hard to have someone important just drop out of your life like they were never there at all. But you’ve had your taste of that, and I’m the one who put that taste in your mouth. It’s very bitter and I can’t even put into words how sorry I am for doing that to you. I completely understand why you won’t ever forgive me, but sometimes I wish you would. I know that’s extremely selfish of me, but it’s really important to me, even though it doesn’t seem that way. I can see you’re happy now, and I couldn’t be happier for you. Maybe it was just meant to be this way; me not being there in your life at all. If that’s what it takes, so be it. It’s a pestering thought that will eat at me, but I will deal. I owe you that much.

Regardless of what you think, regardless of what all the people around you might say, no one knows what’s going on in MY head; I really do care. Always have, always will.

Until that day comes, if ever, good bye old friend.

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us …

Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits …

No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves … Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men …

My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once …

Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

Ever thine,
Ever mine,
Ever ours.

— Ludwig van Beethoven

Sunshine

“Look, in my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person is still going to think the sun shines out your ass. That’s the kind of person that’s worth sticking with.”

— Mac MacGuff, Juno

Wait For You

One too many times I’ve spent my nights
Floating in dreams about you